Life without u…

Without you...
I feel
As if am not living…
As if I don’t exist…
As if I am a mechanical device…

I smile… as if am smiling for someone else…
I laugh… as if am laughing for someone else…
I Live… as if am living for someone else…

In just one week…
I forgot… how to smile for myself…
I forgot… how to laugh for myself…
I forgot… how to live to myself…

I think …
It was for you… I always smiled…
It was for you… I always laughed…
It was for you… I always lived…

I now know…
Only When I smile for you… I was smiling for myself…
Only When I laugh for you… I was laughing for myself…
Only When I live for you… I was living for myself…

Miss you …

Kuttapan

People whom you thought… As your enemies... once...
People whom you thought… You can never gel with…

Sometimes… God brings them together…
Sometimes… They become so close that…

One day you’ll start wondering…
“Ho once how much I hated that person…
Now, I don’t know… how much I love him…”

Well that’s exactly how am feeling now…

He’s just my opposite…
What is right for me is wrong for him…

He has his arguments...
I have mine...

People whom I like… he won’t like…
People whom he likes… I won’t like…

But dunno…
With all these differences…
We really did enjoy the days together…

Strange is this life…
that brought us together…
Will always be thankful…
coz it brought us together…

As long as we have memories…
Yesterday remains…
Memories will fade…
New people… New friends… New priorities…

But I will never forget the time I had with My Kuttapan…

Two faces

Whenever I had sent you a mail during …
I always witnessed a fight…

A fight between two faces …

One… who wants to send a mail…
So that he can hope he may get a reply…
Thus he can spend time waiting…

A face who wants hope...

Another, my skeptical face, who don’t want to send a mail…
Coz he fears it may nag you…
He keeps asking "Am I doing the right thing…?"

So whenever a mail hits your inbox…
Remember… It’s after a long fight…
It’s when the first one wins…


With lots of Love
Face 1

Wait

I waited… I waited…
Cre… eeek…
Was that my phone ringing…?
“Obviously not”
Still… I checked…

It was just the wind…
As always…He was trying to break all barriers…
No matter how strong it is…He tries…
That’s called courage…

I wanted to watch TV…
“What if she calls and I didn’t hear?”
I know she’ll call…
So I waited…

I wanted to Read…
“But what if I sleep reading…? “
She told she’ll call…
So I waited…

Knock knock…
“Who is that?”
It’s me… SLEEP
I heard him laughing…

“Hey… Listen… Not today…
Today my sweet friend will call, she promised…
Today… I want to wait…
I don’t mind waiting for her till dawn….”

Laughter continued…
Now it was louder…

“I’ll give you hundred victories…
But today…please let me win…”

But slowly… I felt my muscles weakening…
I tried … to keep my eyes open…. But in vain…
Slowly… slowly… I slept…

And then the phone rang…
I jumped with joy…
I screamed…
I wanted the whole world to know….
That my friend called….

We talked… talked … and talked…
We laughed…. and laughed….
I was enjoying each and every moment…

Tring… Tring….
Huh… My alarm clock….???

No it can’t be… No… it can’t be a dream….

I searched my phone history…
I searched and searched….

But…
It was just a Dream…

She didn’t call me…
She didn’t…