Gem

They say am my company’s Gem. And they gave me an award too, the first of its kind. “The Star of the month”.

I am on Top of the world. It’s not just an award to me; it’s much more than that. It’s the recognition for my 1 year’s hard work. It’s a proof that I am not that bad or rather am good. It’s something I had decided when I left my old company.

On the last day in my Old Company, we had a team meeting. Just before the meeting ended, I gave a short speech. I don’t know if I had offended someone with this which I should not have done as I was leaving, but still I said it.

"After 2 and half years, I am leaving my company, my first company. The one that made me what I am. I am going to miss everything like hell.

But I feel I was never recognized here. In my 2 and half years in this project, I never got an award, never a good appreciation. It may sound funny, but am really very sad about that.

In my 30 member team 29 of them got at least one Award. All these days, I have seen people getting awards. I have always clapped and encouraged them. As I clapped, I used to think “Yeah someday my turn will come".

Few months back I worked assiduously for 90 days including weekends, holidays. True, I cribbed and cribbed, but I still worked to my best. Even after that project, you said I didn't do what was expected out of me. I still don't understand what more you expected from me. Why for everyone else you expect something and from me you expect something else. I did lot of extra things which my project mates never did. I strongly feel that I deserve an award more than anyone in this room.

Now I am leaving my company without an award and yes I am sad as I will never get one from here. This time I can't console myself saying "Yeah someday my turn will come". “

Anyway now am really very happy. “Alhamdulillah”.
Hope I’ll continue working like this. “Insha Allah”