1 year in Infy...

I am very very Busy…
I am 90% sure that I won’t be able to meet the deadline…
But………………..
Today is a very special day…, August 9th …
May be the day that changed my Life…
So I want to share with you how I feel today…

So today, I complete my 1 year of corporate life…

Flashback…
I remember last year this day…
I was staying at Grand INN…
I was alone in a room… ( all others was sharing his/her room )
I got up at 4:55 am, 5 minutes before the alarm rang…
I was thrilled, confused, tensed, afraid, happy…
I can’t say exactly my feelings, it was a kinda mixture of the above…
I was not sure what is going to happen, how the people there will be, how they are going to react, what I should say…

And I wore my new dress, tie and I started…
I didn’t have a close friend to tell my feeling coz mathoo, nishoo, paul n all was just my Hi-Bye friends at that time and may be to a certain extent enemies… J
And I sat alone in the Bus… still confused …

And I reached infy, I was sooo proud when I saw the campus and this is where am going to work…

And then our introduction classes started….
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And 1 year from now…
Its time to see what I have gained…
Am I still proud that am working at infosys?
What did I gain???
Am I satisfied with the job???
Am I happy with my new friends???
Do I see a change in myself???

Lots of questions are coming to me now…
Dunno what to answer…

I think I have become more mature, less sensitive …
But am still the same caring, loving sibi…( I think so … J )

This is how I judge myself, not sure how others see me..
May be you can’t judge me because you don’t know my past, how I was ….

I always had an aim and I worked for that aim...
I used to work day and night for achieving my goal…

But now, I fear…
I don’t have an aim…
Am lacking an aim …
Am not sure which direction to proceed…
Am not the same old hardworking sibi, working day and night …
Determined to reach his goal…
Am i???

Change...

Change

So another great day… and am starting with my “GM” mail to my Best Friend …
Everything is changing… me… my friends… where I live… my hobbies…
I just asked her… “Can u see any change in my mails???
just asking…
Just wanna know if that too has changed… “
I reckon that has changed too…

Days are running fast…
but the things I do here is the same…
people grumble that they have no time … I too whine… am no exception…
but is that true…?
can’t I make my life better… can’t I make it more meaningful…
can’t I ?
don’t I have the time for that?

ho these questions are echoing in my mind… since the day I joined infy…
how I can manage my time to make the best use of it…
coz what I do in these years matter a lot…

There was a time when I loved to code… my college days…
Coding was my passion…
But that too has changed….

But I still like to code…
If i… myself… feel like doing something… making something better… ill do it… with perfection… coz am doing something on my own…

Now am trying to gain more knowledge…
Whatever it is… may be that will help me to achieve what I want in life…
Though am still bewildered…
about what I want… hmm…

Of course these are things that every person must have felt one day or other…
That’s life… it goes on n on….

My Best Friend

• My Best Friend
• ..Nov 8th 2001
• My third Semester B Tech classes were going on. We all were excited coz juniors had arrived. Ragging had been banned in kerala, but we used to go to meet the juniors.As usual, I was visiting one class after another and I reached her class.
• At that time I never knew ill have someone that close, I never knew she’s going to change my life, I never knew….I stood near the window of her class… Suddenly I saw her turn… I can never forget that moment… I felt a strange kind of attraction… She saw me …I called her and asked her name…I can make out from her eyes that she was afraid of me… so was my other juniors cozI was a bit tough …And simply I asked her if she can sing… I never knew she was a good singer and she’ll become the best singer in our whole university… and she sang…. “ariyathe ariyathe” …One of the most beautiful songs I ever heard in my life…
• There started a wonderful friendship…And the next three years… were my best days in my life… till now…Every moment we spend together was worth to be treasured…Those laughs n cries…Those small small quarrels….Those long long silences …
• Oct 7th 2005
• Now its 1 year since I talked to her….We were sooo happy together…. But something went wrong…Something….I still wonder what went wrong…Was the world envious of our friendship… ??I still wonder…I still remember her… the moments we spent together….She’s my Best Best Friend….My Only Best Friend…